Saturday, April 26, 2014

Day 57: Really?!!!?? Just REALLY!

So, today was pretty rough.  Very painful.  Very oozy.  Incredibly uncomfortable.  A bit depressing.

My face felt like it had pink eye all over it.  It was awful. 

I took a salt bath and it burned.  

I started oozing and put bentonite clay in my face to dry up the gross parts....


I look disgusting.  I look pathetic and feel about that.

I decided to eat dinner.  Made my quinoa, chicken, and spinach.  

All home made.

I got about half way through and something tasted OFF!  Just OFF. I spit out my bite and found something that looked like a cockroach tail.  Chad was convinced it was a seed of some sort, but I couldn't get over it. I continued to pick and look around.  I took another bite and tasted the same thing... Spit it out and found more of it.  And then I puked.  I ATE A STUPID MOTHER EFFING COCKROACH AND IM PISSED ABOUT IT.



Just when I thought today couldn't get any worse.

It did.

PS. I have never even seen a cockroach in our house, so I'm assuming it came in the spinach.  

Tomorrow HAS to be better.



16 comments:

  1. Hey Jen just wanted to encourage you even though I know it's freaking hard at the stage you're at. I went through something similar to what you're going through with oozing on my neck and a little on the face and understand what it's like. Not going to lie but it's unpleasant to say the least.

    But it DOES get better and WILL improve with time so keep going strong. Make the best out of your current situation with the knowledge that it won't stay this way forever.

    Wishing all the best for your recovery!

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    1. Thanks so much for your support! I'm definitely hoping this is the worst.. But I've said that before!

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  2. What a shitty day you had, sorry to hear about it :( Keep strong Jen. Keep fighting. You will beat this. Rooting for ya all the way through this horrible withdrawal!.


    Gary x

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    1. Thanks! It suuuuuucks! Haha

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    2. I know you're right here with me.

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  3. Hey Jen, I just read your post and feel terrible for you. I am shocked to find that you are at the exact day of TSW of where I am. What else is crazy is that I had the exact same symptoms/pain this morning when I woke up. Looks like we are headed down this road in the same time frame, if you'd like to stay in touch, it might be helpful!! All the best--Dan

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    1. Hey dan! awesome!! G. smith above is where we are, too!! So crazy! Isn't it maddening!? Here's G's blog: hellboi333.blogspot.com

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  4. :(

    I'm so sorry Jen! That's super frustrating. This incident would probably scare me enough to not eat spinach for a while. Keep your head up, I got a bit of a break around my 78th day. Hopefully you have one coming around the corner.

    Sending positive, healing thoughts your way. <3
    CatRStephens

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  5. Tomorrow is a NEW day. By the way, you don't look disgusting - you look beautiful. I know you probably don't believe me, but you do! The skin will settle in time, go easy on yourself, your body is doing a LOT of hard work beating this thing. We are all rooting for you! Louise (Josh's Mum) xx

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    1. You're so sweet! Thanks for the support!

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  6. Hi Jen! You look just like my daughter! I just want to hug you! This is just the pits! I thought of a blog that you might like to read, she came through the other side. She looks so much better now. It is PINKLIKEABEACON Hope you feel better soon :) Big Hugs!

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    1. I follow PinkLikeABeacon! Love her blog!!

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  7. Hi Jen!
    Just wondering how the betonite clay is working out for you? does it stop or prevent the oozing?

    p.s. wow can't believe that cockroach got into your dinner! look at the bright side, at least you didn't swallow the entire thing!

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    1. I take it internally sometimes... but as far as putting it on, no.... It aggravated it so much. Not again.

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    2. Thanks Jen! I ordered the clay but maybe I will use it a bit later into my TSW or try a small area first. It could be because we are still early into our TSW and our skin is too sensitive for this product right now, maybe trying it later on into your TSW when the body/skin is better healed and less sensitive?

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