I looked at my blog the other night and realized I hadn't blogged in 7 months. I've kept photos going, but I just haven't blogged them. This wasn't a conscious decision, but after really thinking about it, hrere's why.
1. As a long term TSW blogger, there is a sense of hope you feel you need to pass on to fellow readers. I spent a LOT of my time in the early hell months reading bloggers who were doing SO much better and their positive posts were just so inspiring. I would say "Wow! They are healing SO well at 14 months, I can do that!" Well, over the last several months, there's really no progress to report. In fact, it's either been a slow decline or stagnant crap. I can put makeup on and without drawing attention and can go about my life, but my face looks a bit swollen and pretty wrinkly still. I look puffy. I have gone on living my life, but there is DAILY pain. Daily reactions to EVERYTHING. Daily flares from something. Daily grief from TSW. ALL showers are still exhausting and I have to ice myself after every single one of them. When I tell my 6 year old daughter that I need to take a shower really quickly, the first thing she says is "do you need to icepack?" Seriously? This motherf***ing disease is still dictating my life. I am still in bondage over this bullcrap. I recover much faster, but it's still an ordeal in month 28.
2. I'm back to living my life. I am back to working (photography) so all my computer time is spent editing. I don't really have time to dedicate to the blog. And when it's just a reminder that things are still crappy, there's not really a desire to take time for it.
Anyway, sorry for the absence. I am still not totally caught up, but I'll get caught up when I have time....
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